ah. i feel so annoy :( i cun believe my mom take de phone i want lol. pls lol. the phone tat i want i have been aiming it lol. and the worst thing is my plan for 1 year already past lol and my phone is keep shutting shutting down for dunnoe fucking reason lar. not happen once only. is keep shutting off on its own. and the worst thing is when u sms half way where ur msg is damn bloody long, it shut off. omg tat is the worst. that is y i wanted to chande my phone and __________ dun allow lol. they either just say u are not working take so good phone for wat lol. and pls lol u noe how to use ur old phone mah. u take for so long and most of the things inside de phone u oso dunnoe how to use it lol. wat for take so good? unfair lol. i noe how to use the phone and yet u dun want buy for me lol. u will surely regret one.
i will make sure i change my phone every 6 months or less. i want de phone. it is damn nice and cool lol. y u want to take such a good phone when u dunnoe how to use the phoone? spent so much money on it and yet u cun use it fully. wat for mah? bloody sucking :[ y always i cun take the phone i like it first. i already request to u already. y cun u just buy it for me? it is very ex? i have alreadey say i pay 100 bucks on my own and u just pay for me 148 bucks only. y just cun u buy it for me. beside u still owed me this year birthdae present. dun think i will forget. even though is a chinese new year i still deserve a birthdae present after my birthdae rite? my friend birthdae was in the eve of chinese new year and yet u noe wat her mpther bought her to swensen and eat and oso bought her a adidas jacket which cost 100 bucks plus.
wat about me? me they just bought me food from pizza hut andf bought a cake from swensen lol. pls lol. i have never wanted my food to come from pizza hut. and they never ask me whether i want anot. they just say let eat pizza from pizza hut without asking me whether i like it or not. come on its my birthdae lar. i didnt even have a chance to choose the food i like to eat on my birthdae.... i am going to rmb that dae. never ask for my opinion and u just buy de food. have u ever consider my feelings? i have feelings too. even though i never say i dun like but u should noe wat i like to eat and wat i dun like to eat. as for my eating diet, i am super different from my sis okay? she like pizza doesnt meant i like it lol. u noe wat i dun like to eat. i never like pizza at all. i find it too tasteless and i doesnt suit my character. i like jack place de steak. u noe? i think u oso dunnoe too.
u only noe wat mei mei like to eat and not noe wat i like to eat. so ridiculous rite? my parent dun really noe wat i like to eat. they only spare a thought for mei mei only. think of wat mei mei like and u will let her eat and do. do u ever spare a thought for me? wat i like u of course dunnoe one lar coz ur attention all at mei mei there wat. how to snatch attention from her.from young u treat me and mei mei is so different. when i am young when i dun want to go kindergarden and study u noe wat u do? u just cane me. as for dad he only cane me once and tat once have already cause alot of hurt to me already. even though u cane me super hard when i was super young. u dun think i will not rmb tat. i can still rmb u lock me inside a room and cane me hard. until my whole body have the cane lines. i bet u oso dun rmb tat too. actually i have a lot to compare too. when i am studying in primary sch when my results was not good or i score damn bad i will be fearing that ii will be getting a caning session or a lashing session. but end up u will be caning me. and u see wat about my sis? yeah i meet she is slow in everything she do and she learn.l but u have to be fair rite? she have been scoring badly since she was pri 4. and when she score badly she will become damn guaii for a few daes rite? haha . this is all fake. she is a faker. she will only do her actions only for 1 or 2 daes only. fearing that u will cane her but end up u didnt at all. is this call fair? yes she maybee have some problem but u must be fair to me too rite? as for caning? i got a lot of caning when i was young. when i am naughty i get cane. when i score badly for exam or test i get cane. when ii do something wrong i oso get cane. is there any rule? y u all love mei mei so much? i cannot compaare to me mah? y not? i dun tink u all rmb those things.
haha. u can think i am mad or wat but i am sure that one dae i will lost my control. doing so much things to me when i am young and mei mei didnt even have it make me thinks that my parents are biased even though i feel sorry for my sister. okay fine nvm. then wat about birthdae present? they will get alot of stuff for my sis and i will dun have. have u ever ask me wat i want? u didnt. u are making me feeling so disgusting. ok lets say about ca1 for this year. my sis score super badly for her exam and she never get cane. during the past, if i score this type of results my mom will be scolding me and caning me at the same time. and yet she dun have. i feel tat the treatment that my mom give to my sis and me is totally so different .ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dun care i want to get a new phone. i cannor stand the phone which keep shutting off its own when i am typing msg.

i hate myself.... only a small thing i cun even handle it properly...2dae i almost did something very wrong....i seriuosly hate myself .... I HATE MYSELF.... even a smalll thing i cun even handle it or do it properly.... i am seriously hurt on wat my parents was saying on the phone lol...i heard everything wat they say..... it super hurt my feelings...

i hate myself.....i hate myself.....i hate myself.....i hate myself.....i hate myself.....i hate myself..